5th - 7th April 2024 - Combined updates - Life n Grimes.

Evening everyone.

Since Tonic Health visitor came to see me last Friday (5th April 2024), She touched on some things, I have since found out I was not ready to deal with, and sent me back down fighting the Black Dog!

These last few days the depression has hit me hard (even tho I am back on Depression meds again), This against my better judgement, but was told That I needed to go back on my meds, so they could help me further.

But restarting the meds has again played havoc with constant stomach pains, and at times diarrhea, and other issues. But Hopefully once my body becomes accustomed to them again, that will ease off.

But back to the Tonic health visitor, she like everyone else says "what can I do to help you ?" I just stare at here, and say " how the heck do I know,as I do not understand let alone know how to answer her!

After some discussion, mostly from here as it was all going over my head, and generally to much information for me to process, she said how about therapy!

I just said I am not ready for that yet!, As so far I am dealing with as much as I can at the moment and cannot think about anything else, till they are resolved.

She wanted to know what I was dealing with?

So I thought about it for a while and gradually I answered her question, Pip (So I have some money, to pay for the things I need to help me pay for the items I need that are not free on the national health service, that will help me to live a better quality of life!) The meds, we need to adjust until we find the correct balance for my depression, Mysenia Gravis, Kidney stones removal, and generally get my fitness up as that I can be up all day and instead of just sitting at my computer, get on with sorting items and getting them listed, being able o work on the transit and be stable and strong enough to get down my workshop to re-start working on CBRTIM.

After a while she agreed with me, and said she will not close my case, but will check in every few weeks and hopefully some of the above will be finally sorted ( I will believe that when I see it!)

Another new carer arrived this morning, that I had not seen before, which I was very embarrassed when whilst she was washing around my private parts I started to leak!, Something I have managed to get over with 2 of the regular carers, but there is nothing I can do about it, till the Drs start to investigae and hopefully can resolve teh issue ( I will believe that when I see it).

Finally the district Nurse arrived to clean, take pics and dress the wounds that have re-opened since I started to re-take the meds!.

She said she will be back on Wednesday or Thursday to re-dress them, it took her 3 times as long to type in all the information, than it did to clean and dress the wounds!, No wonder they are stressed and over worked! Maybe the stuff she has to type in needs to be reduced, as I suspect most of the information is already in my patient files..

By the time she left I was exhausted from here questions and from fighting the Black Dog, that I went back to bed! and slept most of the day away.................

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