When I woke up my mind was full of thoughts about the beatings I used to take from my mum & day when I was a young lad!
The care nurse came in and managed to break thru these thoughts, altho I am sure she did not have a clue, to the state of my mind before she arrived and left.
As soon as she had left me the thoughts came back and wouldn't leave me alone, the only thing I can do is go back to bed and hide under the duvet until sleep claims me and gives me some peace!>
I have no clue of why they have just suddenly hit me, and to be honest am scared shitless, as I just do not know how to deal with them!
The only thing I have manged to figure out is I am not ready to re-visit that part of my life, just now.
I need to find away that I can deal with the emotions and then lock them away back behind the wall were they belong and were till we Lost Timothy back in 2012!!