Hi Me.Managed to get up today for a while....

1st job was to catch up on post, only 1 letter from "Crisis resolution home treatment"..

Not a clue why they have been trying to ring me (No missed calls on my phone!)

But as I could not remember why they are involved and they would not tell me! They cancelled it!!

I have an appointment at Johnson Hospital this afternoon at 4pm, spent ages trying to contact people, I know are well, but no help.

Did not bother with family as all working and there jobs are more important, and for Zoe she needs a weeks notice to ask for time off.

Plus I am not talking to any of them !

So at 3pm phoned them up as not able to get from my transit to the relevant parts of the hospital and cancelled the appointment! 

Depression even worse after reading text from the surgeon who is supposed to be doing my kidney ops this month!.

Now have a telephone appointment in March !!!

I am really pissed off with him, as he promised to do the operation withing a few weeks of me being released!!

So now I am back to where I was before xmas with the depression, I cannot get outside the house door, so nothing been done to the transit!

Or anything else, I just do not have any get up and go once again.

I knew what recovery progress I had made from 31st Dec 2023 was fragile, I just did not realise just how fragile it was to be.........

Right back to bed for me, I am shattered and pissed off, with another day and night being on my own!.

I may as well be away in the transit, if only it was ready!!

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