17th August 2021 - Life n Grimes.

Evening everyone.

This Morning we had that chat, that I was dreading with Lynne.

And was surprised, just how easy it was for once!

We talked and touched on many subjects, most we didn't resolve, but we are both a lot better and understanding for it.

The main issue I have I only see Black & White - there has never been any space in my life for grey areas.

And this we think may be whats causing a lot of issues especially when the black dog gets hold of me.

The hardest thing for Lynne I think, is understanding depression and how it works and affects me. Plus also she feels powerless on how to help me!.

I know she has researched as much as she can about depression, but I don't think there is much if any info on how to deal and help your partner/family member deal with it together.

I didn't spend much time on the computer after that, as I just couldn't bring myself to sit here and deal with it!

In fact I did something I gave not done in 4-5 years ! and turned the computer off !!

This allowed me time to not only think about what Lynne n me have touched on, but I think I may just be a tad closer in feeling just how frustrated and annoyed she gets with me and the black dog.

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